Showing posts with label Tori Amos. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Tori Amos. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

critique of bridget jones

cigarettes: too many
calories: who cares, f**k the establishment for telling us we have to be thin
alcohol: none but i probably need it


currently listening to: "wish" by the cure

bought another old pearl jam cd at a rummage sale last night... the only pearl jam album i actually liked in the '90's was "ten"... think i may be having mid-life crisis

go-to albums of 2012, so far:

"scarlet's walk" by tori amos
"amrita... all these and the japanese soup warriors" by loop guru

still waiting for the end of the world...   (and f**k the mayan calendar and hugh grant, too)

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Mom's Sun Mix

The thing my mom and I hate most about winter is how dark it always is. So this year for Christmas, I made her a Sun Mix! Not all the songs are about the sun, "Here Comes The Sun" by the Beatles isn't on here because at the time I made the mix tape (I had to make her a tape because she still has a tape deck in her car) I didn't have that song on CD and my stereo doesn't have two tape players so I can't record from tape to tape. The last three songs are on the tape but wouldn't fit on the CD version of the mix. So, here is my mom's Sun Mix!

Time After Time-- Cyndi Lauper (my mom will be there for me, time after time)
Talk About the Passion-- REM
Little Fluffy Clouds-- The Orb (my brother and I played this song a lot for my mom in the '90's)
Somewhere Over the Rainbow-- Judy Garland (I was obsessed with the Wizard of Oz as a little kid and would go around pretending to be Judy Garland acting out the movie in public places, like my great aunt's apartment lobby, for whoever would watch and I had this song memorized. It was hilarious. I would be Dorothy, and I would make my little brother, who is 2 1/2 years younger than me, play all the other parts, including Toto.)
Possession-- Sarah McLachlan
In God's Country-- U2
Winter-- Tori Amos (both of my parents really like this song, and my mom remembers it from when we were unpacking my first dorm room)
Pink Light-- Laura Veirs ("with the fading of the constellations I am growing strong")
That Lucky Old Sun (Just Rolls Around Heaven All Day)-- Johnny Cash

~~I just realized I really should've put "Ray of Light" by Madonna on this mix! We listened to that album a lot when we were unpacking my first dorm room, too... it had just come out and it was all I ever listened to. Oh, well. Next year.~~

Pink Moon-- Nick Drake (since I was putting all these songs about the sun on the mix, I thought I should throw in a couple about the moon, too)
Who Loves the Sun-- The Velvet Underground
It's Not the Spotlight-- Beth Orton (whenever this song comes on during "Stir of Echoes," I tear up)
Hard Sun-- Eddie Vedder
Sun is King-- Laura Veirs
Man Called Sun-- The Verve
Bette Davis Eyes-- Kim Carnes (I have been known to start the morning chain-smoking and listening to this song on repeat)
Primitive-- Annie Lennox
Map of the World-- Monsters of Folk
I Wish I Was the Moon-- Neko Case
Snow Angel-- Tori Amos (If I make a mix for someone, it's generally gonna have a lot of Tori.)

BONUS TRACKS FOR TAPE VERSION
Good Day Sunshine-- The Beatles
Summertime-- Janis Joplin (because summertime is the bestest time!)
White Rabbit-- Jefferson Airplane (My mom is one of the only babyboomers I know who has never tried drugs. But she still likes this song.)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

R.E.M. - Everybody Hurts (Video)



I said in my last post, which features the video for "Crucify" by Tori Amos, that "Automatic For the People" and "Little Earthquakes" are my go-to albums when I'm feeling bummed. So here's the video for "Everybody Hurts." Enjoy.

Tori Amos - Crucify [Music Video]


This song is from my all-time favorite album,"Little Earthquakes," and it's also my go-to album when I'm bummed out (well, that and "Automatic For the People" by REM.) I love this song at the beginning of the album because I'm always "crucifying myself" and it reminds me, like Tori Sings, that I'm "just and empty cage, girl, if you kill the bird."

Tori Amos - Spark

Thursday, February 2, 2012

speaking of Self-love...

When I was 15 years old and going through adolescent hell, Courtney Love and her then most recent album, "Live Through This," were my shining stars and helped me, well, live through it. They still do. But now I've been going through midlife crisis hell... it seems, happily, to be reaching its end. At the height of my midlife crisis, I pined for the '90s. I got into things from the '90s that I didn't give a toss about in the actual '90s; like Pearl Jam... although I do like a lot of their music, and I love Eddie Vedder's solo stuff. Anyway.

Live Through This: "When you're going through Hell, keep going" --Winston Churchill

"If you live through this with me, I swear that I will die for you" --Hole, from "Asking For It" off of "Live Through This"

So, Clementine Cannibal's most recent post includes this link to things to do when you're feeling bummed. One of them is to scream along, or just listen to, an angry song. "Violet" by Hole is one of my songs of choice (I also like early Tori Amos and most anything by Diamanda Galas or The Kills.

But another important aspect of self-love that I'm trying to get better at is trusting myself. For awhile I was "confessing all my sins" or getting advice on every stupid thing I'd said or every mistake I'd made, but if I feel the need to remedy a mistake I've made or patch up something stupid I've said (which the person I've said it to probably doesn't remember anyway) It's best and easiest and do it my own way.

(Please see the post called "the self-love project" where I began this discussion of self-love.)

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Anna's CD mix

songs by Tori Amos:

In the Springtime of His VooDoo
Blues Skies (Radio Edit) -- BT featuring
Famous Blue Raincoat (Live) (this is, of course, a cover of the, well, famous song by Leonard Cohen)
Glory of the 80s
Big Wheel
Give
Welcome to England
Snow Angel

songs by Eddie Vedder

Into the Wild soundtrack
Longing to Belong

yes, I still make CD mixes. And I prefer my discman to an iPod. I'm serious.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Night in Door County

THIS IS IN MOONLIGHT [I wrote this really big over a whole page of my diary on a magical night, outside, with only moonlight to see by]


Moonlight so silvery bright and unmarred by city lights you could see by it
Stars bright of course too
I really got why people would worship the cycles of the moon and have reverence for darkness, because while the sun shines everything is brightly illuminated but at night the moon is the one brightest thing, and its light is silvery and casts everything in a mystical and half-real glow, so barely there that nature seems to shape-shift




MY ENGAGEMENT RING AS THE CYCLES OF THE MOON

Diamonds flanking sapphire = waxing or waning moon
Sapphire is full moon (as in “once in a blue moon”) dark moon [“everybody knows you can conjure anything by the dark of the moon” –Tori Amos] ocean “my heart is black as the blackest ocean” –Tori [it’s a very dark sapphire, which I love]




SAPPHIRE = SKY

--link between cycles of moon and tides of ocean [and a woman’s menstrual cycle]


darkness and light are of the same creature, like an eye that burns light blue and then dark [that’s what my sapphire does], like a sea black at night but radiant with the blue sky’s reflection in the day

[writing on bracelet mom bought me, The Serenity Prayer]:

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and Wisdom to know the difference.”

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I am writing while listening to "Automatic for the People" by REM

Maybe I should listen to something new, like Lady Gaga. Or something new that I actually already own, like The Kills, Laura Veirs, the Moldy Peaches (well, relatively new) or Ingrid Michaelson. It's kind of sad when you catch yourself considering all music that's come out since after you were in high school "new."

But, speaking of music, Tori Amos recently came out with a breath-taking new album called "Night of Hunters." When I listen to it, I frequently toy with the idea that it's the best thing she's done since "Boys for Pele." I'm serious.

I just got off the phone with one of my friends who happens to be Muslim, and he says the reason many Muslim women wear a covering over their hair is to emulate the Christian Mother Mary, or at least they are following the same ancient Arabic tradition regarding female modesty that she was following (because she, as everyone knows, was Arabic, not Aryan. Duh! :P) In Islam, Jesus Christ is considered to be one of a very few great prophets the world has ever seen.

Okay, I probably shouldn't write what I'm about to write because I'll probably get in a lot of trouble, and I don't like trouble, but I won't respect myself if I don't get this out. So here goes:

I am a Roman Catholic Christian. During the Second Vatican Counsel, Pope John Paul II and others decided that each religion has its own glimpse of the divine, and that Jesus Christ is ours.

So if someone worships Allah, the Goddess, or Yahweh, they aren't going to Hell, because that's their glimpse of the divine.

A lot of Christians-- and Christianity-bashers-- conveniently overlook this. I went to Catholic grade school, and I didn't know about it until I was an adult and my church's pastor told me.

Jesus is a God of Love. He isn't chomping at the bit to send everyone to Hell. The Church teaches that there is only one God. To me, that means that Jesus, Allah, Yahweh, the Goddess, Buddha, etc. are all faces of an unfathomable being or energy. A nun friend I was recently speaking with says "all gods being one" is why Buddhist teachings are so similar to Jesus' teachings. Jesus and Buddha are the same. They are both faces of the same, one God. At any rate, "there is only one God" surely does not mean "we're right and the rest of you are wrong"? Do we have a petty, schoolyard bully God?

Also, if you think lesbian/gay/bi/transsexual (LGBT) people are going to Hell, think again: there's a Catholic church in my city where almost all of the congregation is gay, and the pastor who told me about each religion having their own glimpse of the divine recently complimented me on my "straight but not narrow" bumper sticker.(Okay, maybe the bumper sticker example is kind of lame, but I still think it gets my point across.)

Christians like to say that God is mysterious. Then why do so many of them claim to know everything about Him, to the point where everyone who doesn't agree with them about Him is going to burn in Hell for eternity after they die?

Friday, August 5, 2011

Music, Reading Material, and Movies for Door County

MOVIES
(this is the only time when my mom has time to sit down and watch movies)
I got my mom "clueless" to watch in Door County because it's cute and it's based on Jane Austen's Emma
Rosemary's Baby-- Roman Polanski is a genius. This movie is so eerie and so scary in a way that's built up with subtle layers and shifts in consciousness and reality without any cheesy special affects.  Mia Farrow is a genius, too... her performance was outstanding and really made the movie work.
My Big Fat Greek Wedding (I thought my mom would appreciate the whole growing-up-ethnic-in-Chicago thing, even if she is 1/2 Italian instead of 100% Greek, plus my dad loves this movie)
Up! (my nephews think the old man in this movie looks like my dad)
I'm hoping one of my brothers will bring Rock'n'Roll Circus... I could use some good John Lennon/ Mick Jagger-flavored eye candy... but don't tell T! :)
my dad's bringing Kick-Ass and The Book of Eli. If I could be anything I wanted this Halloween, it would be Hit Girl
Finding Nemo... because we can't get enough of Disney/Pixar
Help!... it's a family classic. With Beatle eye candy. That's important.
Girl, Interrupted-- I love this book so much, and I was both really excited and a bit wary when I heard a movie was being made of it starring Winona Ryder. But she was great-- ever since I saw it I've had so much respect for her, and I appreciate her impulse to make a movie about mental illness (she produced it). I heard she wanted to make the movie because she'd been having panic attacks, and I know how awful those can be. Kind of makes you wonder what kind of a society we live in where so many people have panic attacks, huh?
My dad's also bringing Kill Bill 1 & 2 (my favorite Quentin Tarantino movie... or should I be pretentious and say film?) and Flight of the Valkyries, starring Hollywood's very own expert on psychiatry, Tom Cruise!


READING MATERIAL
The Bell Jar (I know, I know)
The Wisdom of Insecurity because I'm hoping it'll change my life. If it doesn't, I can't get my money back because it was a gift from Bugman, who is the one who told me it would change my life.
Last month's issue of Bust
This summer's issue of Bipolar Magazine

MUSIC
Lots of classical (Mozart's Requiem Mass, Bach, Beethoven, Scheherezade, Schubert), Johnny Cash, and Ray Charles for the car because it's the only music my dad and I can agree on and I DON'T  want to be listening to Jay and the Americans and Roy Orbison the whole way up
The White Album--  I used to listen to the Beatles pretty much all the time, especially the White Album (me and Charlie Manson, right? ;) and so therefore i listened to that album in Door County, and little bitty Bugman started calling "While My Guitar Gently Weeps" "The Door County Song," and now it's a family tradition to listen to it on the ride up to Door County
a mix CD a friend gave me that has the song "Map of the world" by "Monsters of Folk" --that song really means a lot to me right now and if I get the chance I want to play it for my brothers. It's pretty depressing... my favorite line is "the road that you paved over Indian graves and you wonder why your dreams are crazed"
--Wave by Patti Smith
I bought this album during Black Friday retail therapy with my sister last year, but just started getting into it now. Just in case I have a chance to listen to it...
PRETTY ON THE INSIDE BY HOLE
I first got into this album heavily, especially "Good Sister, Bad Sister," the summer of 1994, when I was 15, in Door County. (The hipster in me wishes to point out that this was BEFORE they got really popular with their fall of '94 album "Live Through This," although I'm sure I'm not the only person to have turned my interest to Courtney Love during the spring and summer after Kurt Cobain's suicide.) That was 17 years ago. It seems appropriate.
Little Earthquakes by Tori Amos... My all-time favorite album by anyone, whenever I go somewhere and bring music I bring this album. In fact, one time I couldn't find it and I freaked out so hardcore I went out and bought another copy. Well, I found my old copy, so now I have two! Also, my dad likes the song "Winter" and can appreciate that Tori is a masterful pianist. (By the way, I think I would have to say my all-time second-favorite album is Automatic For the People by REM. I know it doesn't make sense because REM isn't one of my top five favorite bands, but even though they're responsible for my 2nd favorite album, they don't fit the criteria for being one of my top five on facebook. For one thing, that's the only album by them that I ever listen to. For another, they don't fascinate me the way Tori, the Beatles and Hole do, and also I love pretty much everything Hole, Tori, the Beatles, the Kills (who also fascinate me), and Partners in Stars have ever done. Partners in Stars are my good friends, they haven't blown me off since they started getting successful, and in a manic fit I nastily called them a "goddam New York Electronica Band," but we were all able to laugh about it later to the point that they made the quote one of their posters. Go Partners in Stars, independent womyn and embodiment of feminism! Mad respect and I <3 you something fierce!
more music for Door County:
Otis Redding
Aretha Franklin
Diva by Annie Lennox (which I assume my dad will like since I "borrowed" it from him)
August by Rose Polenzani
Anonymous 4 singing Voices of Light: An Oratorio Inspired By the Film The Passion of Joan of Arc (this may be too goth for my dad, or he may really like it... I might already be pushing it by having Requiem Mass as my Mozart pick)


--this post was originally a note on facebook

Friday, May 6, 2011

KK's Playlist

Mookid-- Aphex Twin
Shining Road-- Cranes
One Hundred Years-- The Cure
Baby's Insane-- Diamanda Galas
Stepping Up to the Mic-- Internal/External featuring Kathleen Hanna
Don't Lose Yourself-- Laura Veirs
Lightning is My Girl-- Melissa Auf der Maur
Letter to God-- Hole
Shaved Pussy Poetry-- Huggy Bear
Working Class Hero-- John Lennon
Gloria-- Patti Smith
Polyester Bride-- Liz Phair
Anyone Else But You-- The Moldy Peaches
Shadowtime-- Siouxsie and the Banshees
Rich-- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Give-- Tori Amos
Everyday is a Winding Road-- Sheryl Crow
America-- Simon and Garfunkel

Friday, March 11, 2011

Soundtrack to my life... so far

DJ Trish requested more playlists, and I am delivering! The following is the soundtrack to my life... so far.

Disc One: "They said you were something in those formative years..." --Tori Amos

Like a Prayer-- Madonna
A Day in the Life-- The Beatles
Sweet Child O' Mine-- Guns'n'Roses
Heart-Shaped Box-- Nirvana (to view the video for this song, click here and scroll down to the bottom of the page)
Man On the Moon-- REM
Mr. Jones-- Counting Crows
Longview-- Green Day
Good Sister, Bad Sister-- Hole
Crush With Eyeliner-- REM
Stars-- Lisa Germano
Saturday Afternoon (Won't You Try)-- Jefferson Airplane
Ice Cream Phoenix-- Jefferson Airplane
Two Heads-- Jefferson Airplane
Buildings and Bridges-- Ani Difranco
To Bring You My Love-- PJ Harvey
Through the Eyes of Ruby-- Smashing Pumpkins
Hyperballad-- Bjork
Pissing in a River-- Patti Smith
Mr. Gallo-- Cat Power
Plants and Rags--  PJ Harvey
In Liverpool-- Suzanne Vega
Bette Davis Eyes-- Kim Carnes
Famous Blue Raincoat-- Leonard Cohen
Spark-- Tori Amos


 Disc Two: "...help me in my weakness, for I've fallen out of grace... Jesus, Jesus..." --Velvet Underground

Keep On Living!-- Le Tigre
Strange Fire-- Indigo Girls
Jesus Loves Me Like a Bird-- Rose Polenzani
Little Earthquakes-- Tori Amos (click here to donate to Tori Amos' favorite charity, the Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network, (RAINN) which she co-founded)
Otherside-- Red Hot Chili Peppers
Tomorrow, Wendy-- Concrete Blonde
There Is a Light That Never Goes Out-- The Smiths
Where the Streets Have No Name-- U2
Wayfaring Stranger-- Johnny Cash
The Swimmer-- Sleater-Kinney
Let My People Go-- Diamanda Galas
Fire Snakes-- Laura Veirs
Gimme Shelter-- Rolling stones
Suddenly I See-- KT Tunstall
Lightning is My Girl-- Melissa Auf der Maur
When Under Ether-- PJ Harvey
Black Balloon-- The Kills
Letter to God-- Hole
Jesus-- Velvet Underground