Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Dude, Where's Our Sense of Wonder?

Is it possible that the popularity of belief systems such as Wicca, neo-paganism, and neo-witchcraft are a revolt against the modern times we live in where almost every phenomenon that used to be thought of as magical and vast in its mysterious unknowability can be explained away by the BELIEF SYSTEM called science-- indeed, is a belief in fae folk and whispering trees in the forest dappled with liquid sunlight a much needed balm against the tragedy of our modern society's general lack of wonder? Me personally, I cultivate my sense of wonder, that could easily compete with any 5-year-old child's, with my art, and also because I have been insane I have experienced first-hand different realities than the dominant culture's version of reality, and although the science of psychiatry can explain away those realities with the pat labeling of them as symptoms of schizo-affective disorder-- and, even though on a practical and, more to the point, day-to-day level, I know this label is true-- it doesn't change the authenticity and soul-flight truth of those alternative realities, at least in terms of how they were experienced at the time. I don't want this post to sound anti-psychiatry-- I really, really like not hearing voices or thinking "They" are "out to get me"-- I'm just saying, on a certain level, if I felt something, it was real, or at least it was real at the time. But that doesn't mean I want it to be my permanent reality, particularly because most of it was terrifying. But part of the sense of wonder I experience now because of having been insane, even after all the psychotherapy and medication, is that if I open certain doors in my mind I can LOOK AT realities I've experienced in the past; I can look at them, even if I don't walk into the room.

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