Saturday, July 28, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
snippet from faq page
I started shaving my armpits
again about a week ago. The fact that my area has been going through a
series of intense heat waves may have something to do with it. Anyway,
even though, as of now, I am choosing to shave my armpits, I still have
mad respect for women/girls who don't and I think it's really unfair
that's it's okay for guys to be as hairy as gorillas but if a female
doesn't shave her armpits it means she's man-hating and gross. I started
a club on facebook called "I <3 Grrrls With Hairy Pits"... go find
it!
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Thursday, July 5, 2012
ghost girl
Sometimes i feel like the ghost of myself, haunting old places that used to have meaning they no longer have. i've been in the same place for so long now that different eras of my life, different selves are layered in a fine mist that builds up into a fog upon this town and glimpses of the past show through the cracks between the trees and houses like bits of old, peeling wallpaper; like falling autumn leaves.
on being a woman of size
I am a woman of size. I'm still not used to being this way. I am this way because of psychiatric medication. I think that's why it bothers me. I'm not "supposed" to be this way, I feel. It's the medication's "fault."
While I acknowledge and am grateful that these medications allow people like me to lead normal lives and to thrive in the world, part of me does feel like it's cruel to give people who already feel bad about themselves medications that cause this much weight gain. But they make medications that don't cause weight gain. On me, those medications don't seem to work as well. I'm even on a separate medication that is supposed to prevent weight gain.
The last paragraph was thinking in terms of "it's bad to be overweight." I think I may be afraid to think "off the grid" in terms of weight (ie, "who says it's bad to be overweight?") because I don't want to let the medication off the hook. This may be somewhat reasonable, but I take the medication for a reason. Maybe it's time to accept myself (my self) as overweight, and stop letting a culture that denigrates people of size off the hook. I'm not doing myself any favors by NOT letting the medication off the hook while continuing to take the medication.
While I acknowledge and am grateful that these medications allow people like me to lead normal lives and to thrive in the world, part of me does feel like it's cruel to give people who already feel bad about themselves medications that cause this much weight gain. But they make medications that don't cause weight gain. On me, those medications don't seem to work as well. I'm even on a separate medication that is supposed to prevent weight gain.
The last paragraph was thinking in terms of "it's bad to be overweight." I think I may be afraid to think "off the grid" in terms of weight (ie, "who says it's bad to be overweight?") because I don't want to let the medication off the hook. This may be somewhat reasonable, but I take the medication for a reason. Maybe it's time to accept myself (my self) as overweight, and stop letting a culture that denigrates people of size off the hook. I'm not doing myself any favors by NOT letting the medication off the hook while continuing to take the medication.
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