Reasons Why I Started Smoking

The world comes at you too fast; it's nice to have a reason to take a break. That said, a lot of people are "going out for some air" now when they need a break. I can do that instead. Going out for some air is so much nicer than going out for a cigarette. I can inhale the fresh spring air instead of the dirty carbon monoxide smoke, and not feel embarrassed for what I'm doing.

 

A word on the world coming at me too fast: I'm someone who is easily stimulated and likes to take my time on things to get them just right. In school, I frequently ran into problems because I "didn't work fast enough." The kids who worked fast got to have social lives; I spent all my time on my schoolwork and gave up on my social life because I don't work "fast enough." If I chose to hang out with friends, I often didn't do well in school because of it.

 

I think our culture is sick. It stresses people out and than villifies people for the ways they try to cope with the stress, whether it's smoking cigarettes, drinking, smoking pot, overeating, or whatever. Just as very few women in our country can fit the skinny, big-breasted, blond, young and white ideal for women, very few people in general can fit the ideal in our country of a physically fit, well-adjusted, healthy person with no bad habits.

 

Well, anyway, this Sunday I will have gone two weeks without smoking.