When I was 15 years old and going through adolescent hell, Courtney Love and her then most recent album, "Live Through This," were my shining stars and helped me, well, live through it. They still do. But now I've been going through midlife crisis hell... it seems, happily, to be reaching its end. At the height of my midlife crisis, I pined for the '90s. I got into things from the '90s that I didn't give a toss about in the actual '90s; like Pearl Jam... although I do like a lot of their music, and I love Eddie Vedder's solo stuff. Anyway.
Live Through This: "When you're going through Hell, keep going" --Winston Churchill
"If you live through this with me, I swear that I will die for you" --Hole, from "Asking For It" off of "Live Through This"
So, Clementine Cannibal's most recent post includes this link to things to do when you're feeling bummed. One of them is to scream along, or just listen to, an angry song. "Violet" by Hole is one of my songs of choice (I also like early Tori Amos and most anything by Diamanda Galas or The Kills.
But another important aspect of self-love that I'm trying to get better at is trusting myself. For awhile I was "confessing all my sins" or getting advice on every stupid thing I'd said or every mistake I'd made, but if I feel the need to remedy a mistake I've made or patch up something stupid I've said (which the person I've said it to probably doesn't remember anyway) It's best and easiest and do it my own way.
(Please see the post called "the self-love project" where I began this discussion of self-love.)
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