Thursday, September 6, 2012
James 1:27
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this. to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. -- James 1:27
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Big and Strong
After reading my last entry, I feel the need to update. Okay, so big changes have been happening with me because of the Reawakening of the Goddess, most notably quitting smoking. But other changes have been happening that I couldn't have imagined. I wrote this on my facebook wall last night: "[T] said, 'You know I think you're beautiful, but YOU have to think you're beautiful.' I've decided to embrace being a full-figured woman. Let's put some of that feminism to work for ME!" Okay, so I have been exercising more and reducing my sugar intake, but I decided that's for my health, most notably so I don't get diabetes, which happens so often on the medications I'm on. It's hard, but if I quit smoking, I can do this. And that keeps me from starting smoking again: I don't want to lose that feeling of, "If I quit smoking, I can do anything." Anyway, the point is, the other night I was crying about being fat and then I did something I've never done. Instead of resolving to join Weight Watchers for the fifth time, I popped in a Margaret Cho DVD ("I'm the One That I Want") and by the end of her act I felt ashamed at my weakness in bowing to the mainstream media's stupid demand that everyone be skinny, and if you're not skinny, it goes without saying that you want to lose weight. I felt weak for not accepting myself for who I am. And I don't want to be weak. I want to be strong. BIG and strong! I think I'm finally on the path to self-love. And if a woman loving herself for who she really is isn't a major feminist reawakening, then I don't know what is.
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